In Him

I try not to write too often about being single. This is true mostly because, more often than not, I'm complaining about it.  Not tonight. 

Tonight is different. It isn't about loneliness; it's about peace.  Because the truth is, I'm satisfied.

As I sit in my pajamas, winding down at the computer I feel myself grow more and more tired. I watch the clock as each passing minutes equates to fewer minutes I will be able to sleep.  And then, He speaks.

I hear a voice, speaking to the innermost part of my heart, telling me I should go to sleep now.  It's time. I need to rest.  As I'm overwhelmed by peace, I smile in agreement. The gentleness of His beckon reflects the depth of His love. 

I may be single, but I am not alone. He is with me. Loving and caring for every necessity. Calling me closer to Him.

Those other things that I long for are distant. It is He who is near.

And He is all I need.

Living

Peace. Joy. Rest. Happiness. Silence. By the grace of God, these will one day be words that describe the way I live. I want to spend time living the tradition of the Christian life. I want to move and rest to the rhythm of life in Christ - the rhythm of the liturgy. I hope to never again wish for life as it used be. I will always strive to allow life to change me, to embrace all there is to learn, to start anew in every phase - always learning the lessons life teaches, always learning to live a better life. I hope to embrace the silence. To meet God (peaceful, loving, and gentle) in the stillness. I am training myself to pause, not just externally, but internally as well. My heart and I will learn how to love God. My soul and I will learn how to rest.