Monday, August 29, 2011

A List

Here are some things I haven't blogged about for good reason (some of them) but that I don't feel right blogging more without mentioning.

- I dated. For awhile. That ended. The biggest thing I learned is that most of my "dealing with break up tips" come from Gilmore Girls, which paints a fairly decent picture of the reality of things. (Note: that is not actually the biggest thing I've learned, but it is true and funny...and definitely far less painful to write about than the other big stuff.)

- My heart lies in ministry. I absolutely love it. Teaching doesn't really seem to be the realization of my hopes for ministry. I'm using this year for some hardcore discernment in this area. I want to go where God calls, not because I feel comfortable there, but because He asks me to go.

- Suffering is very real. And The Velveteen Rabbit describes it well.

'Real isn’t how you are made,’ said the Skin Horse. ‘It’s a thing that happens to you.  When a child loves you for a long, long time, not just to play with, but REALLY loves you, then you become Real.’
‘Does it hurt?’ asked the Rabbit.
‘Sometimes,’ said the Skin Horse, for he was always truthful. ‘When you are Real, you don’t mind being hurt.’
‘Does it happen all at once, like being wound up,’ he asked, ‘or bit by bit?’
‘It doesn’t happen all at once,’ said the Skin Horse. ‘You become.  It takes a long time.  That’s why it doesn’t often happen to people who break easily, or have sharp edges, or who have to be carefully kept. Generally, by the time you are Real, most of your hair has been loved off, and your eyes drop out and you get loose in the joints and very shabby.  But these don’t matter at all, because once you are Real you can’t be ugly, except to people who don’t understand’
- Speaking of suffering, have I ever shared with you my all-time favorite quote on the topic? Peter Kreeft said, "Perhaps the reason we are sharing in a suffering we do not understand is because we are the objects of a love we do not understand." God's love is FAR beyond our understanding. The "real" that He wants us to become is not a "real" we can comprehend. Suffering makes us real.

-I'm going to learn how to sew. My sewing books come tomorrow. The machine comes on Wednesday. The fabric will come sometime after that. I want to own an apron that I made all by myself. That means I must learn to sew.

-I watched Anchorman for the first time. Well...I graded papers during Anchorman. Why, you may be wondering, would I watch a movie such as that? I'm not exactly sure. However, a question I've had since High School graduation was answered. The Valedictorian ended her speech by saying, "Stay classy class of 2006." I always wondered what that was a reference to. I should have known it came from one of the most quoted movies of all time (Title of Honor given by me - so it's legit.).

- I've been talking to people on catholicmatch.com. Why? Honestly, most of the time I'm not sure myself. However, two of them seem like nice guys. One of the two has a family farm...with no chickens. Really? What's the point of a farm if you leave out the chickens? The other has this listed in his favorite actors section on his profile: "...Mel Gibson, Kirk Cameron, Robert Duvall..." Okay, I have a problem with Kirk Cameron making list. I mean sure, he does wholesome Christian films now, but to call him a favorite actor? Have you seen Fireproof? BUT, under normal circumstances I would let that slide. HOWEVER, to put him in between the likes of Mel Gibson and Robert Duvall...Really? Those are AWARD WINNING actors who ...you know...have talent... (Wow, I'm not usually that mean on this blog.) Anyway. As I said, they seem like nice guys.

- I'm reading Augustine's Confessions. Finally. It's really enjoyable, and not a difficult read at all. If you're my Facebook friend, you probably could have guessed that I've been reading it - lots of good quotes there!

- I've really missed writing here. My heart is rather heavy right now. I'm making some big changes, and (in the right mood) I can paint a fairly dismal picture of my life. I just need time. And prayers. Soon, I will write about joy.

Monday, August 22, 2011

Eucharist Question

Today in religion class we were talking about receiving Jesus in the Eucharist. After some curiosity about how it all tastes, one student asked, "Is it a dry wine?" Gotta love 2nd graders!

Friday, August 19, 2011

Not Now

There is a blog post coming. I just know there is.

But it isn't here. Yet. Not now.

I kind of hate not updating here. I'm approaching a point where I think I'll be able to begin to express some of the work God has been/is doing.

It will come.

Just not now...

So sorry!